Impassioned = filled with passion or zeal : showing great warmth or intensity of feeling
Apathetic/Spiritless = having or showing little or no feeling or emotion
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This week I have seen my husband be impassioned/passionate about this new work-out & nutrition plan we are starting. Normally, I would be very excited for him and love watching him be passionate about something, but....I'm sorry to say that this week I've just been frustrated with him.
At least, I thought I was frustrated with him but in reality, I'm frustrated with myself. I feel like I'm at a place where I'm apathetic about life - I feel like I'm just living life, surviving the daily routine and not really enjoying it. And I HATE being this way.
I want to love every day, I want to live life to the fullest and I don't want to miss a moment!
Sometimes I hate the roller-coaster of life but it's just life and this is my journey.
Thanks for listening :)
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Transforming One's Self
"In all our creativity, we destroy and rebuild the world, and at the same time we inevitably rebuild and reform ourselves." --Rollo May
Creativity for me, and I would think for most people, is a window into one's soul. I don't just mean a window for other people to look through and see a piece of me...it provides a window for me to see myself more clearly.
I learn so much about myself through the simple act of working with my hands. Using my hands to create/form something new connects me with the world and with myself. I am able to shut out all of the "noise" around me that comes from our giant to-do lists. I am taken to a peaceful place where I don't worry about the dishes, or the laundry, or who I need to call, or the drama that's going on with a friend, etc.... I am just simply there - sitting, creating, thinking, dreaming. I am able to find that peaceful spot where I feel connected with myself and am then able to look deeper into my heart/soul and deal with what I find.
Art has helped to teach me who I really am - me, Erin Drez. It's been a tool and a safe space to shut out the world and the voices of "do this" "do that" "this is right" "this is wrong", and find what I think and believe for myself. I have a much stronger sense of who I am because of the artistic venture I have been on.
"The creative individual is the one who not only attempts to make some order out of his music or art but to make some order in his own life." --Rollo May
At this point I am trying my best to follow my interests with my art. I've always struggled because I've been told I have a talent for drawing & painting but I find myself often wanting to do more crafty-type projects, rather than the traditional "fine art." It's hard for me to let go of what I think I "should" do and follow what I want to do.
A good example of someone who followed his heart and stayed true to himself is Rembrandt. In his younger years he was a very successful painter and was selling his work right and left. As he grew older and experienced tragedy in his life (the death of his wife & children), his paintings changed and had a more somber feel which made them less attractive to buyers. His popularity and success were gone by the time he died, but over the years as people have begun to study his work he is considered one of the greatest painters that ever lived because of the transformation that happened. The transformation of himself and his art went hand in hand and that is a true artist.
So, my current goal....follow my heart and stay true to myself.
The sad part is, this terrifies me in a lot of areas of my life (not just art) - but I'm going to try.
Creativity for me, and I would think for most people, is a window into one's soul. I don't just mean a window for other people to look through and see a piece of me...it provides a window for me to see myself more clearly.
I learn so much about myself through the simple act of working with my hands. Using my hands to create/form something new connects me with the world and with myself. I am able to shut out all of the "noise" around me that comes from our giant to-do lists. I am taken to a peaceful place where I don't worry about the dishes, or the laundry, or who I need to call, or the drama that's going on with a friend, etc.... I am just simply there - sitting, creating, thinking, dreaming. I am able to find that peaceful spot where I feel connected with myself and am then able to look deeper into my heart/soul and deal with what I find.
Art has helped to teach me who I really am - me, Erin Drez. It's been a tool and a safe space to shut out the world and the voices of "do this" "do that" "this is right" "this is wrong", and find what I think and believe for myself. I have a much stronger sense of who I am because of the artistic venture I have been on.
"The creative individual is the one who not only attempts to make some order out of his music or art but to make some order in his own life." --Rollo May
At this point I am trying my best to follow my interests with my art. I've always struggled because I've been told I have a talent for drawing & painting but I find myself often wanting to do more crafty-type projects, rather than the traditional "fine art." It's hard for me to let go of what I think I "should" do and follow what I want to do.
A good example of someone who followed his heart and stayed true to himself is Rembrandt. In his younger years he was a very successful painter and was selling his work right and left. As he grew older and experienced tragedy in his life (the death of his wife & children), his paintings changed and had a more somber feel which made them less attractive to buyers. His popularity and success were gone by the time he died, but over the years as people have begun to study his work he is considered one of the greatest painters that ever lived because of the transformation that happened. The transformation of himself and his art went hand in hand and that is a true artist.
So, my current goal....follow my heart and stay true to myself.
The sad part is, this terrifies me in a lot of areas of my life (not just art) - but I'm going to try.
Monday, March 15, 2010
Random
Journal entry...
I know these pictures are fuzzy, but here is a necklace I put together last week. I've always wanted a locket to wear - this is one I found at the Rose Bowl flea market and I added some old charms I had lying around. It's a a very sentimental piece to me...
I know these pictures are fuzzy, but here is a necklace I put together last week. I've always wanted a locket to wear - this is one I found at the Rose Bowl flea market and I added some old charms I had lying around. It's a a very sentimental piece to me...
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Plotinus
I read this in a book last night and I thought it was really beautiful. I will be the first to admit that I'm far from perfect and I have a lot of work to do on myself to be the person I want to be - but this writing gave me a great visual of how to work at becoming a beautiful person...and I find it fascinating that something written in 270 A.D. holds so much truth today...
"And if you do not find yourself beautiful yet,act as the creator of a statue that is to be made beautiful:
he cuts away here, he smooths there,
he makes this line lighter, the other purer,
until a lovely face has grown upon his work.
So do you also:
cut away all that is excessive,
straighten all that is crooked,
bring light to all that is overcast,
labour to make all one glow of beauty and never cease chiseling your statue,
until there shall shine out on you from it the godlike splendor of virtue,
until you shall see the perfect goodness surely established in the stainless shrine."
---Plotinus, 270 A.D.
(Plotinus was a major philosopher of the ancient world who is widely considered the founder of Neoplatonism)
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